When we show contrition (or the resolve to be sorry over our sins and repent of them), the Lord fails not to welcome and save us as we return; for the LORD is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves such as have a contrite spirit, Ps 34:18.
In worldly ignorance, one of the ways I reasoned as an unbeliever who was informed in sciences, was that if there is a disease, there is also a God who created it and who can also cure it – believing that with good, evil can be overcome.
At my work place on a certain day, I noticed some thing unusual…. Some days later, a stubborn ‘object’ was detected around my throat, which could not be coughed out by any means. It was grievous as it was strange. It had no cure. It had no name: for I went to various laboratories for medical tests, but no disease was identified. I spent all on physicians, but the sickness grew worse – just like the woman with the issue of blood.
On a certain night, the disease became exceedingly severe: my nasal passage was blocked, I could neither breathe, nor bear the pain – the terror of the night compassed me and there were pangs of death all around me. I was therefore left alone in the wilderness of affliction.
Meanwhile, while lying in the sick place, I heard a disturbing voice. From the early hours of the night till the depth of the night, it said to me: “leave all you have and die; you have achieved things”. The voice was unusually strong and dominant. After struggling for some time, I began to think of leaving all I had and giving up….Then towards the end, in the pit of darkness, another voice came.
This voice was still, not coercive, but was very gracious and glorious, and looked reasonably followable – then it said to me: “confess your sins”. But I did not believe it at first; neither did I believe that I would be saved by the Lord, having not experienced miracles before, nor the dissimilitude of voices, not to talk of ‘obeying’ a voice and getting healed, thereby.
After sometime, I followed the voice. But there was some thing else before me – the battle to confess and show contrition. This overwhelming battle was fought with the thought of forsaking the pleasures of this world/sin. But there was no time left: foolishly, I agreed and told the Lord: “if you save my life, I will desist from fleshly sin”.
At that moment, something I had not seen nor heard of nor thought of happened! The great and mighty power of the Lord fell upon me. This power completely destroyed the object and set me free, after months of wandering in despair and destitution with an incurable, debilitating sickness! Some months later, I received a message, as I sought for wholeness; a prophecy went before me, and, in truth, I received deliverance as prayer was made for me by the prophet, and as he prayed the prophecy came; that it was the work of the enemy: bewitchment.
I found grace and obtained mercy. Glory be to the Holy One! For his salvation and wonderful works.
Thus saith the LORD, the people which were left of the sword found grace in the wilderness; even Israel, when I went to cause him to rest, Jer 31:2.
In all, the power of God is mighty and exceedingly great towards the believer and the unbeliever. The Lord is good to them that wait for him and to the soul that seeks him. Believe in God and believe also in Jesus Christ, for salvation and all power belong to him. For the LORD is good unto them that wait for him, to the soul that seeketh him, Lam 3:25.